To what extent should be obey our parents?
i knew that I had to obey regardless, unless its in a way that go against God's will.
i knew we had to turn the other cheek...
but it was really hard for me to take in another string of vulgarities, illogical judgements and his irrationality.
i donwan to see my mum being pushed around and beaten up again...
monday he actually called me someth reallyreally bad that is too crude to be said here.
He wanted to severe all ties w me and was that close to chasing me out of the house.
its because of a small matter again....

why does he keep on saying that I am so bad bad bad bad and worthless?

i told my mum i couldn take it anymore,
and i asked her how could she endure under his temper for 20 years..

my mum said something that made the earth shake beneath my feet.

"口是别人的,要怎么讲就怎么讲.
要像耶酥,被人打,被人骂,都不出声. "

"他扔我的东西,辱骂我, 我都不在意,
因为我知道他需要我比我需要他多."

"如果他杀你,只是杀你的肉体, 不能杀你的灵魂,
更快上天国不是很好吗?"

"你圣经读那么多怎么不明白神的宽容?
不管他有多坏,他还是你的父亲,所以你要让步.
你不用判他,让神判他."


that day, i learnt that i haven been able to truely act out wad i knew at the back of my head.
wad i have been learning in masterlife about discipleship, is it just theory?
wout receiving enuf authority and respect in the family, which is literally all that he have got,
my dad who has a character of an extremely self-righteous king would be very miserable.
i have to try to understand how his logic centre works,
and learn how to not trigger the temper button.

It is time that i can demonstrate God's forgiveness and love.

please pray for my father to change.

i hope that the next time any of us gets upset w our parents,
we'll try to put ourselves in their shoes before disobeying them.




p.s. im not sad/angry now so donworry.
im enlightened!
today i went out w my sis and sunye and went happily for carolling aft that=)