i dno wad happened ytd,
mayb cuz i eat medicine
mayb cuz i memorised too much
mayb i caught the highly-indecisive flu virus frm Hamlet
i chose the wrng quest and im stuck halfway.
"one woe tread upon another"
i cant write anyth other den
the names of ppl who died and how they died.
it was the worst 20min in my exam history.
i nv felt so lost in an exam before.
i cant change quest alrdy
i cant thk of anyth else to write either
四面楚歌, 进退两难
knwing that there is no hope left,
i stop writing my Hamlet aft 1/2h and continued wif my argumentative

i researched and studied days and nights on other themes
but i guess its fated that i chose to write on
"there is no such thing as fate. men determined their own lives."
irony!
i cited Helen keller, Singapore, Romeo and Juliet, Versailles Treaty and Hamlet.
i started with
" your fate is not in the stars, but in your hands.."
ended with
" the only constant in life is change. you cant change the stack of cards you have, but you decide how you play them. Fate is in your hands. "

luckily the argumentative looked argumentative,
not like my hamlet that looked like newspaper obituary page..

taken from my sis's blog.

Chapter 1.
I walk down a street and there's a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. It takes forever to get out. It's my fault.
Chapter 2.
I walk down the same street. I fall in the hole again. It still takes a long time to get out. It's not my fault.
Chapter 3.
I walk down the same street. I fall in the hole again. It's becoming a habit. It is my fault. I get out immediately.
Chapter 4.
I walk down the same street and see the deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
Chapter 5.
I walk down a different street.

i cant finish reading chapter 3.

why did u reject it?
i donmean anyth
i donwan anyth in return
u don owe me anyth too...
i donmind being transparent too,
i just want you to do well.


thankyou jh for trying to breaking the badnews and staying there for me.
so sry u had to run up to the photocopying shop and
to the canteen
and to the library
and back agn =(
so sry jh tingg sj to damped the mood and wasted a few of ur precious hours

GRACIE thanksalotalotalot.
thanks for the postcard and sweet
thanks for the fries and nuggets and nai cha!
i feel happy when ppl buy food for me
and more aft eating =)
thanks for hearing my mourning and groaning and complains and rubbish!
thanks for being there for me everyday!
ure not bad at cheering ppl up lahs,
cuz
i rly felt much better when i reach home!
aft exam den we go ball!!
mayb i can succeed in learning DOTA,
hopefully i won attempt to kill myself agn
thankyou Yuru for calling!
aft the nap + aft the talk i feel motivated to study agn!

last but not least,
thankyou Jesus.
thanks for being there when everybody disappeared.

no matter how hard i tell myself
"its ok, its just a lousy day. just flopping one exam and getting rejected AGAIN."
i still ask why.
and then he answers.

" for my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways .
for as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
isaiah 55:8-9

in the times when he seems inactive, he may be more accomplishing than ever.
A "what God does" faith is really not faith at all.
faith is not believing that someth will happen.
is it steadfast believe when nothing happens.

donworry yuru, and pinky, and merv and whoever shunned by Hamlet that day,
although our efforts will not translate into A+
but wad we took away frm Hamlet the noble prince is much more priceless !