what hurts the most?

i changed blogskin cuz....
some of the tamtams commented that they could read my previous blog posts cuz the alignment wasnt right.

so i changed =)

l met with some of the tamtams today when we went to fetch yuru home =)

so glad to see that God has kept her safe and glowing -- literally.

talked about stuff..........................................................
realised that we really needa communicate w each other more,
middle-men muddle things up.

We have been trying,
i can vouch that we have.
Please allow us to love you.

i have faith that God will help us thru this =)
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went w jiahui and chinyang for supper,
had a really awesome time =)
guess students impact and inspire teachers too ;)
a l o t .

like how you did.
i will support you all the way.
but for me to support you all the way,
you have to go all the way.
you must rely on your own two feet, and hands if you need to crawl.
so far, you have proved that you can.

life's something more,
its a lot more.
Don play it away.

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side track, must hear "what hurts the most " by Danny Gokey!
it was a tribute to his late wife.
it brought tears to my eyes!

when i was looking at the lyrics,
i wasnt just thinking about my exbf,
actually he rarely appeared in my head.
i was actually thinking about my mum, my students, my Lg...
and all those who are dear to me,
all those who i love,
what happens if they leave wout hearing what i have to say?

LYRICS

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

=)

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