that friday re-enacted

i opened the folder today,
68 documents.
20 more was created in kow's computer.

with the slip of paper in hand,
everyth came rushing back.
the 3day2nights camp
the snores
the hairdryer
the dark community centre corner
how jochebed stayed up to arrange our GPF when we didnt even knw
how for the 100th time we corrected her "public"
how yuntong had her tired head rested on com lab's table
how she stored our memories in her camera
how our eyes lit up with kow's idea of the postcards
how he managed to say OK and smile to everyth, everyth
how zhenwei put all of us to sleep and stayed up to finish our WR alone
how we ate donuts in his father's office.
how much effort I put in
how much effort 039 put in.
how i enjoyed working wif 039.

i was fighting to control my tears when wu lao shi said our whole class got As.
it was a moment of jubilation for us.

the first thing was running to yuntong.
n when i hugged her,
i cried like mad.

i realised how much i love this grp.
i realised how much an affirmation is crucial for hardwork to feel perfect.

perfect.

and all this is impossible wout wu lao shi
i rmb how we complained abt her strictness,
her questioning everyth
her firmness
her relunctance to give us an answer
it was only question and no answer
why why why why
how how how how
what what what what
are u sure?

we didn knw wad to do
we didn knw if we cud trust her
but we did learn to trust
after sometime,
we finally learnt how she ticked.

during the last month,
wu lao shi was our ultimate strength.
she had the strength to guide us and spot our flaws
even though it was clear on her face that she did not hv enuf food or slp!

when she stayed wif us until 12plus at night,
we were so blacked out
i cud almost see e stars dancing
yet she was the most energetic among us
she was still picking out our grammer and correcting our structure
munching on her fish burger.

the pain she took in reading every word of our WR,
my whole class's WR....

xie xie wu lao shi!

5Di for Alvls won match the joy i have in me at that moment.
cuz its the drive of 5 ppl
the effort of 5 ppl
the sacrifice of 5 ppl
the belief of 5 ppl
the encouragement and strength of 5 ppl
the care and unity of 5ppl
the joy of 5 ppl.
and 1 very dedicated teacher.

i need to thank god for giving us such an enlightened teacher,
n for her to allocate us into grp by the very random register number way
4,9,14,19,24 =)

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while we soaked in happiness,
there were so many others that had their worst day.
ppl were crying and crestfallen.
there was no doubt about the effort they put in.
that ugly crack in the flawless vase.
i cud emphatise.
cry, scream, eat, slp, guitar, hug your dad, mom, bf, gf
pray, hide, tear, throw, emo.
take your time,
and one fine morning when you wake up,
come back strong.

bravehearts,
wad dont kill you, makes you stronger.



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sermon today was a little heavy.
felt rather heavy inside even though its my 18th year hearing gd fri messages.
on the 6th hour, darkness came upon the earth.
burdened wif our sins ,past present and future,
the father had to leave his son.

den it was done.